See U In My Nightmares

The only backpedaling I do is when I play football. I was quite good at it too. I'm not one to lie. I have been burned a time or too. Sometimes, when you are in man-to-man coverage, you have to have a cushion of space between you and the person you are guarding. It's hard running backwards. It's even harder when you are running backwards at full speed. It's harder still when you are running backwards at full speed and trying to make sure you are not defeated.

It's been a year. Or more. Being a Scorpio is not easy. It's a gift and a curse. One thing though is, we never forget a kindness or an injury(even when it's imagined). being me is even harder. I remember the first time my heart was broken. I remember the downward spiral that followed. I won't go back down that road. Ever. Just because you do what you think you do doesn't mean that it was actually done. Just because you say the things you have said and continue to say doesn't mean it's true. Using manipulation will not detour me. I have faced more horrors than you engaging in someone else or not talking to me or anything you can think will affect me. This is why you call me heartless. Or Cold. Evil, even. I may be. Maybe you are angry because I don't give you what you seek. Maybe you are selfish and don't know it yet. You are young(ish). You will learn. Maybe I've lost you as a friend, love interest, picture trader, or confidant. I don't know that, but I know a lot of things. I know why we would never work. You are not fully capable of even defrosting me a bit, yet you blame me because your heat isn't good enough. It's ok. Find love somewhere else. I haven't lost a thing. You have, and you will remember it for the rest of your soul's existence. It's been a year, or more, yet I thought of you today. Karma is on my side. I will not backpedal for you, because you are not worth me guarding.